ReGrEt

I did something I never thought I would do.  I went out of my comfort zone and entered the world of hip hop dancing.  I attended a Turbo Kick Instructors class.

If you’ve heard of Turbo Jam or Turbo Fire, you know what I’m talking about.  Its a type of exercise that incorporates music into high intensity moves such as kickboxing and a little martial arts.  It feels more like a party and you never would guess its working out because its SO much fun!  The girls I went with were great and the instructor teaching this workshop is the BEST.

If any of you know me though, your jaw probably needs to be picked up from off the floor.  I can’t count rhythm, or beat-see I wouldn’t know the difference any way and can’t carry a tune either.   In junior high, my band teacher told me that before I came back next year, I needed to look into some private lessons over the summer in order to be allowed to remain in the group.  This was a public school where there were NO auditions to be in band-yet, he was placing a limit on how far low he’d let the quality of his concerts go.  One day in church-new to this ward-my husband and I were standing and chatting after the services were over and a very nice lady came up to us and excitedly invited my husband to join the choir because they were low on great bass voices.  Then she turned to me and said-and we welcome anyone so if you would like to as well…  Shoot, Scooter would cry when I sang to him…

And its not like I didn’t try.  I took a jazz class when I was 7 years old too.  I hated it so much, but my mom said she didn’t pay the upfront cost in order for me to quit.  I never went left when the rest of the kids did…

So why the HECK would I have paid money to try and become an instructor ?  Really I don’t know.  And thats why I’m writing today.  I in no way want this to reflect the class, the exercise or anything relating to Turbo-but I did not enjoy myself. Like I said, I LOVED the instructor-we’re pretty good friends, and the girls were so much fun-but I didn’t ever really get into it.

And today I cried.  I cried and cried because I haven’t even a clue if I passed. I payed money to go to something that has now been officially confirmed I am no good at.  I spent the WHOLE day from 9-6pm at a dance studio on the nicest day of the month while my husband got to play with the kids outside at a park.  The house was a mess, no laundry, cleaning bathrooms, prep for the weeks meals, vacuuming none of it got done.  And its not my husband’s fault.  He did an awesome job of watching the kids AND cleaning the kitchen including doing dishes.  Its just that the house has fallen to a two man clean up job and this one was off doing something I suck at.

Then my wonderful husband pulled me close and said, hey-suck it up.  Nah, he was much kinder than that but really, that was the underlying message and it was exactly what I needed to hear.  We all do things that just don’t turn out in life.  We take chances that will help us grow.  If it doesn’t turn out-if it doesn’t turn out like we WANT it to, it doesn’t mean its a failure.

If we wallow in what we did-instead of looking to what we’re going to do about it-we’ll never get anywhere.  I love this quote by Victoria Holt

Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.

So, I wiped my tears and put on a smile.  I did something that I wasn’t comfortable with-I DID it.  I experienced something that was new and awkward and I survived.  I changed my perspective.  There are going to be LOTS of days to be outside this summer with the kids.  I got a whole DAY to myself and my husband got to bond with the kids one on one.  I made new friends and got a really GREAT workout in.  The bathrooms would have gotten dirty less than 5 mins after I cleaned them and Scooter usually wears the same shirt like 3 days in a row so whats a 4th going to hurt?  And you never know, I might just get that instructors certificate and we can all laugh at myself together at a group workout.  I’ll keep ya posted on the time and date.

Man, I am so glad to have a great husband to put my attitude in check so I could turn around and help you change yours!